paradise you will always have

i'll be your sunshine after the rain...
in the sky is turning grey...you know that i am not far away...
sunshine after the rain...
together till the end...whenever your needed of friend...
or shoulder to cry on...someone that to rely on...
i'll be your sunshine after the rain...
is the one thing i wont change...

hufff....it's a nice song...
resembles me on something happened to me at past...
the nice song that give me a new point of view facing the world...
whatever i failed...whatever the mistakes i did...whatever the world never smile to me...
some there a place that someone will says to me..."that song"....
my family...my best friend...and maybe my self it self...

we are not happy just because we want to...
but we are happy because we have to....
sometimes regrets, worthiness, and maybe,,,dumbness...live behind our self...
but the only thing that we must know...
some there out of your reach...will always a place for you to comeback...
yeah...we called it...HOME....

even it's too far away.....
even it's too expensive to reach...
even it's too hard to step to...
home....will never reject you...
come in... and stay... until you can feel...
that....is the best place you can get...
it's the paradise you will always have...

hiii jijay...

i hate hate hate hate!!!
it's like a big disaster and very annoying...
every day,i have to eat this dust shit!!!
how it can happen???
the cause is exactly in front of my house...
the bad condition of the road front of my house have made me sick!!!
it make my house dirty,even i have cleaned up every single time...
aaarrrgghhh...

but the most disturbing thing is it makes me crazy..tired..angry..desperate..and finally..i wanna kill somebody!!!
yeah..it"s true!!!
i wanna kill the goverment because they dont take quick action to solve it...
they let it be...
maybe,if they live in here,they will know what people faced!!!
come on your honesty... when that you gonna take an action...
we can't wait any longer again...this condition really make our mine out of control...it"s going crazy!!!
i cant live in that condition!!!
i cant accept it anymore!!!
oh my god...when it will end???

u satisfy me,babe...

hwaaaaa...
it was really a good morning...
akhirna setelah 2 minggu gak bersua,pagi ini aq bisa melihat my babe lagi..!!!
padahal sorena da insiden yg bkin aq cukup utk bteriak histeris..
menjelang magrib tiba2 ja listrik drumahku mati,tp yg bkin bete tu cuma komplek rumahku ja sekitar 6-8 rumah ja deh...uhh sial banget!!!!

awalna sie aq fine-fine ja menghadapi kegelapan itu,tp ko da yg janggal yaaa...
oh emgeee..ntr malem kn si babe maen.. oh no!!! ga bisa dibiarin nie.. gahswat!!! hwaaaa.. ayo2,think..think..cari jalan buat bisa nonton si babe..!!!
ohhww yaaa,. drmh budhe kn g mati lampu... hmmm.. ngungsi ja kesana, hehehe..good solution,briliant!!!
tp..there was a good news, my father has taken an execelent action!!! yupz.. called PLN!!! dan abis magrib akhirna kegelapan udah mendapat pencerahan!!!
horeee...
hmmmm...ternyata aq bangun kecepatan...gapapa deh,daripada kelewat.. dan ternyata it was really a great match...
MU menang 2-0 atas intermilan...hehehe...satisfied bangetz...apalagi ditambah my babe nyumbang gol di pertandingan itu,huhhh puas sekalee...
tapi tetep ja da cerita sedih...
juveku tersayang harus tersingkir dari liga champion gara2 chel"shit" sialan...upz.. maap...
tp, the game must go on..
sekarang aq dukung my babe 100% pokoke...
come on babe..i believe u can do the best!!! lets get the quartupletz...!!!
i know u can do that.. because u are my babe... i luv u,crisno...so much...

nunggu bedug magrib

saat nunggu bedug magrib mrpkn saat yg menyenangkan bwtku...
duduk santai di dpn tv smbil nonton berita sore..
hmmm..kalo seperti ini bener2 bisa kerasa bgt hidup dlm "sophisticated world"...
g harus brada di tempat yg dkelilingi brng2 mewah ato dtoko supermarket serba da utk bs ngerasain "kenyamanan dunia"
lupain aja semua hal yg ngebebanin pikiran,mulailah berkhayal apa saja yg ingin dicapai...ato mungkin mulai berpikir saat raga ini mulai renta apa hal gila yg bisa dilakukan...
dunia ini benar2 sophisticated kalo kita bisa nempatin diri untuk tidak terjebak dalam rutinitas roda kehidupan
hidup itu hadiah dari Tuhan,bukankah seharusnya jadi sesuatu yg menyenangkan???
coz... I LOVE MY LIFE...

aku terjebak...hwaaaa...

aq ingt bgt...jm 8.30 hari rabu 4 maret 2009 smuana trjadi...mengerikan!!!
and this is the story...
wah udh jm 8.30 nie hrs cpt2 mndi lgsg solt biar g ktnggalan nonton meteor garden...
ok abis mandi udh seger lgsg present dh ma allah... hmmmhh crtna pdkt nie ma allah, hehehe...
assalamualaikum wr.wb... udh slesei nie tinggal bdoa ja... tapi...

DRRRTTT...NGUEEEENG...DRRRTTT...NGUEEEENG...
kykna aq kenal suara ini..ah paling cm lewat ja,kmrn jg gt ko...
NGUEEEENGGGGG...
Tapi,tapi..kok kykna mkn dket y...??? jangan-jangan...hwaaaa...
aq pun lgsg branjak utk membuktikan perkiraanku...
hwaaaa...tyta aq dah terkepung!!! asap putih sdh memenuhi rumah!!!!
cepat selamatkan diri... keluar,keluar..cpt..cpt!!!
pintu depan sdh tak mgkin dlwati..mati aq, lwt mana lg nie...oh y, pntu blkng,.!!!
aq brlari tunggang langgang... pria brtopeng di tengah asap itu hny menatap kosong ke arahku..yg spt org gila bteriak2 histeris..
aq pun bergegas ke luar rmh lwt pntu blkng scpt mgkin...
hooahh...akhirna aq bs terlepas dr bahaya...trimakasih allah...tp da yg ktnggln!!! hp..aq hrs blk bwt ngmbl hpku... allah lindungi aq... kyaaaattt...
haahhh...legaaa...akhirna bs bebas jg dr jebakan asap sialan itu!!!! aq pun mghirup udara kebebasan ini...sampai...
"ehh kmu knp ko kyk anakku ja to takut ma semprotn nyamuk??? msh pke mukena jg lg??" tnya mba siti tetanggaku
hahhh...iya,tyta aq kluar rmh dgn msh memakai mukena dan parahna lg tnpa pke sendal...uhhh becek lg...:-(
aq hanya bs nyengir buaya...
hehehe..."iya mba,abs g tahan ma bau tu asap..." ngelesku,pdhl emang bnrn takut ma tu semprotn nymuk sialan!!!
but..wait a minute.. kykna da yg kluapaan...
haahhh,..nasi dan lauk blm aq tu2pi td!!!! mati aq!!!!
duh gimana nie..???
alamat g jadi srpn nie...
setahuku,mknan bs jd g lyk makan klo udh terkontaminasi asap nymuk..
huhhh...gr2 fogging sialan tu, perutku terancam kelaparan slama stengah hari...
nasib...nasib...hikz...

single happy to happy single

Tahu kn lagu bruna oppie tsb?!?
that"s right... this is what i feel now...
just enjoy to be what my life goes...
hmmm...naif???
or desperate...?!?

there is something wrong if i said that i am happy and satisfied with my life..???
love can come from anyone,anywhere,anytime and anything...
just believe in my self i can feel that my life is enough...
tears it's so precious that i wont to share for something unimportant
happily ever after just like cinderela story does not exist in this realistic world...
happiness just can we reach with acceptance in any situation which have happened to us...
no matter if u alone facing this reality drama,dont worry because just with yourself u can bring happiness come to u...
the only thing u have to remember...
u always have unlimited love from the LORD...
so be a happy single and live on single happy world...

silence in the dark

the lamp went out... just darkness around me, why there is no a little light to cheer up my night??
who has to blame???
my father??because he was late to pay the bill?? i think not...
the PLN?? it can be...
it has been for 3 days, my night became dark...
alone in the darkness...
just a crazy think...
ok...the dark princess...
but..darkness give me a peace... to runaway from a scary face of life...
i am not a strong girl,who can do anything to reach my dream...
i just a stupid girl who is trying to be strong by lived in my dream...
and darkness has completed my dream...
and maybe i should to thank of it...